Here's another...

Honestly, I ALWAYS think these are funny!

sigh...

This time of year always makes me feel a little depressed. Probably because this is the time of year when couples are forming or just being generally full of pda. It shouldn't bother me, but sometimes it does. Like this past weekend, when one roommate went home to see her fiance, and the other took her boyfriend on a family trip to a cabin. I was here at school, by myself, trying to find something to do, with just myself. That's the time when I feel down. Obviously, I would never want my friends to spend time with me over their significant others, because they are clearly more important. But why am I not important to someone? Why have I NEVER been important enough to someone that they would want to ask me out?

I'm not saying that I need a boyfriend. I certainly do not, as I've proven over the last 21 years of my life. I really just want to know what has caused me to have such a non-existent love life. That's all I want. Is it my fault? I don't see how it's not, since I seem to be the only person around with this problem. What's the deal?

On another note, the Push Play album came out today, and the inefficiency that is the campus mailroom just couldn't seem to put the thing in my mailbox today. It's clearly more important to sit on their butts at their computers. duh.

Alone

There's noone else here right now. My roommates are both gone for the weekend, and it seems a bit lonely here. This apartment is just a bit creepy without anyone else in it. It's time for me to go to bed, but I'm actually a little afraid. I'm such a paranoid person, that I'm gonna be listening for noises forever. I just hope I'm able to ignore the creepiness and just get some sleep.

I have a busy day tomorrow. It's our class field trip to the National Museum of American History in Washington, DC. I'm really excited, because it's the only one of the Smithsonian museums that I haven't been too yet. When we went in 5th grade, we didn't have time to go to that one. Every time I've been to DC since then, it's been closed. Bummer. But I will finally be able to see it, and Julia Child's kitchen, tomorrow.

I love the band Mcfly. Honestly, I don't understand why they were never able to get a huge fanbase in America. They're pretty huge in Europe. They requested my friendship on myspace, like, 5 years ago. They are still amazing.

I think that's it for now. I'm gonna try to get some sleep now I guess.

PEACE

hello!

I sure haven't updated this in a long time. The stupid dial-up internet we have at my house made it pretty difficult to do anything online over the summer.

I'm back at Messiah, and I'm finally a senior. I'm not sure where I'm going in my life, but I hope I'll soon figure something out. There are a lot of things I feel I need to accomplish this year. Some of them are obvious, like things to do with having a future career. Some are more personal, like figuring out what the heck is wrong with me that I still can't find a boyfriend. It' s not like I really need one, because I've been fine on my own for the last 21 years. The problem is that it's gonna be awful hard to find a guy in the future who is ok with my complete lack of past relationships.

It's best to just not worry about it, I guess.

That's all for now.