Do you ever feel totally out of control?

Like everything is completely beyond your power to fix? I feel like everything going wrong around me is somewhat my fault, and there's nothing I can do about it. I know it's not really my fault, but I feel somehow responsible. I don't know what I'm doing, and I don't like that I'm somewhat being shunned by people who have no idea about anything. I'm done with all this nonsense. I really am.