Some things I've learned

I'm not very articulate. Some of the things I say don't come out quite the way I want them too, and I just hope that certain people reading this don't think I hate them. Or don't want to be around them. Because that's not true. There are things I just don't want to do, and I really do think that my friends understand that. All of them. Some of the worries I had before were really very unfounded and dumb. I think I was just not in a good mood at the time, and didn't say things quite the way I wanted. But oh well.

Here's something I learned about myself:
I am afraid of falling in love. All this time, I've been complaining about my lack of love life, and everyone else's drama they've involved me in, but you know what? I'm really just terrified of having to deal with the drama myself. I know it will be worth it, and I really am ready for and want a boyfriend anytime, but because I've never had one, I have no idea what to expect. I mean, I guess I do, from watching all my friends, but I have no actual experience. I don't think that makes me immature, and I don't think it makes me any less desirable than anyone else, but that's how it is. Hopefully it won't influence anyone too much, because everyone has to start somewhere, but that's what I've been feeling.

JTerm is almost over. I've read some fabulous books. My short list of books I recommend would be this:
Poison Study; Magic Study; Fire Study ( all 3 by Maria V Snyder)
The Ascendancy (by John M Weiskopf)
The Road (by Cormac McCarthy)
A Great and Terrible Beauty; Rebel Angels; The Sweet, Far Thing (all 3 by Libba Bray)

I think that's enough for now.